Im still waiting on my medical records and my tdoc never would tell me my "official" diagnoses' so not sure if bp1 or 2 but I do know what you mean about the memory thing. I have no memories of most of my life. I, like you kade, have to reread between almost every sentence or paragraph I type in reply to the other posts so I know what I am replying about.

As to feeling like "Alice in Wonderland Goes to Hell" I can completely relate as for about 5 or 6 yrs now I am completely convinced I slipped down the rabbit hole and am living in a different (parallel) world from that which I originally grew up in. IDK if its psychosis or not but I KNOW this is a different world and that everyone I knew has changed somehow even though I cant really remember how they were before anyways...