You will get thru this estee1. (((((esteee))))) I know it is tough and it seems as though you will never be able to cope. I was like that once and now I am getting better every day. Just take one day at a time and one step at a time.
I highly recommend keeping seeing your T and a Pdoc to keep you going. They have helped me tremendously as well as my wife and friends. Especially the people here.