The things that keep me going are always different depending on how I feel exactly. Sometimes it's my kids, and other times it's my will to be stronger than people think I am. My parents tell me that I am too "independent" to need them much (because really and truly they can't handle me because of my mental illness). I'm learning to use their stupidity to my own advantage. I am telling myself that I AM independent, and that I can do these things no matter what. I can live through this. I know I can because I am me. I still have my bad days, but most of my days are good.