Two things:

There is a part of me that remembers how much I used to enjoy life. It looks like a movie to me now, but it helps me remember that my life has value, for me. I don't rely on the feelings of anyone else for that right now, screw 'em all (not including present company).

But when things are really at their worst, this may sound strange, but it is my OCD that keeps me going day after day, "down in the trenches" so to speak. I need closure. Not to my life. I need to see next weeks episode of Lost. I need to see how they resolve the conflict between Adama and Kane on Battlestar Galactica. Of course Star Wars was a big one but those are over now.

I've always had that problem with TV. I''ll catch a tiny part of the stupidest show, and I have to stay tuned to see how it ends.