im 32 and haven't been in a real long term relationship. yes ive dated and its lasted months but mostly around 6 months. around that time we both know whether or not we want to be involved. i have recently started talking to an old friend i care about immensly. he cares for me too. it seems to me though that anytime i get into a relationship it triggers my bipolar and i start getting depressed. i was so excited and nervouse and even unsure but we talked and things seemed ok now im starting to go down. my mood i'm just not happy. i start to read into every little thing and it makes me even more sad. like today he didnt text goodmorning like he had been and i feel like i was forgotten. he lives in a town about 40 min away so we dont really see each other yet. just reaquainting with the idea that it will go somewhere. im beginning to think though that if i continue to go down and end up more sad that i will ruin things. i usually feel as if i ruin things even if i dont really. i dont know why i worry so since we arent really anything yet. not really perhaps thats what makes me sad i'm not important enough to get the good morning. feeling blue and down on myself not feeling worthy i guess. perhaps this whole relationshiip thing isnt something i can handle. perhaps its not meant to be. There are times I feel I can but when the bipolar starts to sway my mind I doubt myself. I need strength to not let the bipolar interfere