(((((((((((((growlycat)))))))))))))

Sometimes I think things in the T relationship are about 57849254 times more intense than in any other relationship. I literally almost NEVER get angry outside of therapy; I never have. But I am so...on guard, maybe?...with T, that I have been angry at him MANY times. Or maybe I feel safe enough to be angry? Both?

In the end, though, I think the most healing thing about my therapy has been the ruptures and the repairs. T pointed out recently that after each rupture/repair, our relationship is that much more connected, intimate, authentic. And it is.

Feeling disconnected from T is one of the worst feelings in the world for me. I'm SO glad he was there and you were able to reconnect.

It sounds like you and T are doing good work together