I got laid off from my part-time job today. I may be called back in a few weeks if I haven't found anything else. My unemployment's about to run out. I'll probably get an extension since Congress approved it, but I'll probably miss a payment.

It's summer, and people are going on trips and having fun. Not me. No fun for me. I just sit here in a house I don't want and wonder why. Why I'm being punished. Why other people are living the life I want. I ran up credit card debt buying **** I didn't need to fill a void, to make up for what I didn't have in my life. I thought someday I'd make enough money where I could manage things. I should have known better. Other people are making it in this economy, but I can't.

I'm a loser.