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Yoshi · Aug 02, 2010, 10:34 PM

Soooo..My guy bestfriend wants to date me, and I'm really not readdy right now, I just got out of a relationship and I dont bounce back quick. He's a really sweet guy, he's cute, funny, pretty much all the things I like in a guy

Butt......I'm still hurt from my last relationship, like badly =/ I think about it every day and it just drives me nutts cause I really dont know why I cant get over it, like I dont believe it happened, or that those words would come out of the one persons mouth that I actually trust, now I cant trust anyone, and it wasnt even a serious relationship, I just feel like I lost a bestfriend, someone who was there for me when I needed someone to talk to. but of course, I hide it, not letting anyone know how I actually feel, because its not worth there time, and besides, why get people upset over it? I'm not worth it. And I doubt they want to listen. ;[

But anywayssss, me and my bestfriend were talking, and he told me that he works out for me...........WTF ?! I asked him why is he working out for me, if your doing it for anyone it should be yourself. He said that he thought I liked six packs, which he claims he doesnt have. Do you know how bad that hurt? Like, did he think I didnt like him because he "doesnt have sixpacks" ?????

I could care less what he looked like, I dont need what some women refure to as "hot guys". I go for ones that actually have a heart, the one's just looking for a few month sex realtionship can go screw themselves.

I DO feel like relationships just make the friendship part worse, I went out with him before, but it felt akward, so we broke it off, and are still good friends till this day, bestfriends. I regret braking up with him, because I relized a month later how much he ment to me,But I really dont like taking the chance, I rather be just friends, I dont like him as much as I did before, and I'm NOT ready to try again to see if somethings there. When it comes down to it, I'm just not interested in dating anymore, well right now atleast.

I know my bestfriend will understand, I know he will be by my side what ever I decide to do. But I KNOW if I say I cant it will still hurt him.

I just wish I had someone to talk to, and that someone would usually be my bestfriend, but I cant talk to HIM about it, it has to be someone else, but there is no one.

Oh lord, what do I do =/

Sorry that I wrote so much
I just had to let it out >.<