Is it because you want validation and "proof" of your issues and emotional pain?

I can somewhat understand. There are times when I also wish I was in a hospital, and that my lack of hospitalisation was "proof" that there was nothing wrong with me. Compared to most people with my DX [schizoaffective], I haven't been hospitalised whereas people with sza, more often than not, find themselves in the hospital.

I've come to realise that it doesn't matter whether or not you've been hospitalised - if you're hurting, then you're hurting.

Besides, from what I've heard about hospitals - they're pretty boring places.