I'm Bi Polar - severly depressed. I have a hard time getting dressed and cleaning up every morning. Simple tasks are super hard to do and I find myself putting off cleaning the house until it's a dirty, dusty place. And then I want to cry as I clean and wonder why this is happening - is this part of being Bi Polar/severly depressed? I'm on meds but they don't seen to help me with these issues. I tell my self that I'm just lazy, that I'm no good to anyone, and I wish I just wouldn't wake up in the morning. I find my self not getting dressed up after noon, sleeping until after 9am, going to bed early at night, and just finding peace in sleeping. Is this normal for a person with manic depression? Or am I just lazy.... I just can't seem to get the energy to do anything... I have no energy anymore. I take my med on a reg basis. I've started to take half mg of xanax in the mornings and it's taken the edge off of the anxiety that I feel constanly. I just want to know if my being Bi Polar causes me to be lethargic. I don't even find peace in the things I used to love - scrap booking, reading, knitting.... I just sit and have to push myself to find the energy to do the smallest little thing.... I'm so tired of this.
Thank you for listening.