{{{{{{{{{{{{{MP}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I know exactly how you feel! Hun, it's the "human condition." That's the "why me." Just remember, feelings aren't facts, ok?

I'm freaking right now myself, but I'm trying to tell myself that the fear is External to me. I don't have to believe the Fear. If I accept the fact that I'm scared, I can control IT better and not let it control ME.

Don't try to hide from it, tell it to come right on in and face it squarely. Tell it "You want a piece of this???" Then think out your self-talk. What are you telling yourself? Is it true? Is it real? Discard wasn't isn't true and deal with what is.

This is difficult for me to write, because I'm going through the process myself. I've let my fear take hold of me, but I have to reason to let it. I know that the source of my fear will soon be taken care of. What I'm afraid of CAN'T TOUCH ME unless I let it. In truth, the fear is unrealistic. It's on the other side of my screen. I don't have to let it in.

Hope you can relate to some of my rantings. Just know that you aren't alone. Someone out there understands and is fighting the same "thing."