Are the other kids you hang out with facinated with "insanity" and all the strange stuff that gets coupled with it in the music vidoeos and such? Honestly, I can get about as whacked as the next, and in everyday life I am pretty dull. So is being mentally ill, really, I mean, it's unpleasant often, in my case it's definitely a been there, done that experience everytime it hits, and the meds suck. All in all, dear, I really hope you never have to find out, and no, I'm not being mad or sarcastic. Take good care of yourself.