I wish I could go back in time and prevent what happened to me.
I wish I didn't have to deal each day with memories/visions/flashbacks from the abuse and hurt I endure.
Kind of ironic that I cannot go back and delete it but no one will allow me to run away for life.
Either way I don't see how I will ever be healed.
I cannot imagine feeling any different because no matter how hard I work on this something keeps pulling me back into the black slime pit.
I am so tired....it just doesn't seem like I can fight anymore.
Goodbye!