I know what you mean by the pulling you back. For 5 years I told myself no big deal no big deal no big deal. I finally got more control until issues being resurfaced and pulling me back down to where I was before. I keep telling myself that everything will be okay and I'll forget it again, only to be thrown back under.

I wish you luck with dealing with these issues. I hope you feel better. ((((((((((((((((sj)))))))))))))))))))