Thanks for your support guys. It's difficult because my family means so much to me and being around them for an entire week reminded me just how much I appreciate and love them. They treat me with love and respect unlike the broken person some may see me as. I'm starting to feel a little better now. It's hard for me to get out though. My Effexor dose was just upped and I'm dealing with the adjustment anxiety it causes. It's really worsened my agoraphobia. Depending on how bad it is that day if I go out my hands shake sometimes even my legs when sitting. It's so embarrassing and annoying. Before my vacation I went to get a manicure and pedicure. I was shaking so bad the woman kept asking me if I was okay. It was so humiliating. I'm able to go out when my boyfriend is with me. I long for the day when I don't need someone to be with me just to go somewhere.

Here's to my treatment someday setting me free of this. I try to keep the faith that it will