I'm having a really hard time staying present today. I can't physically speak when I need to. I had a good morning. Things seemed to be going well. But this afternoon I can't stay present. My head is everywhere. I don't know if it's because I'm nervous about the doc appointment tomorrow, scared about T on thursday or if it's because I haven't had any medication since saturday morning. Or if it's just a combination of it all. I'm not suppose to start the new med till thursday night. But I'm thinking about starting it tonight. I can tell my depression is speeding up already to slam me. My head is just crazy. I keep coming in and out. I don't feel safe when it's like this. Everything is pouring down on me.
Monty