that said Rhianna--- cant remember the whole name at the moment.. Im sorry if my telling you where in my life time I encountered the same problem that you are having made you think I was talking about you and scared you by making you think I was diagnosing you.

I should have stated my post the way I usually do when someone asks what the problem is, is there a name for this and other diagnosing questions..I always start with--

we cant diagnose what your problem is all we can do is tell you if we have encountered the same problems in our lives and what it turned out to be in our lives.. then told you about my grandmother and the others and my having the same problem as you.

I wasnt trying to say you have all those things me and the people in my life have. my point was that problem you are having has many different names to it depending on how it is affecting you, and your life.

I have no idea what this is for you, the only people that can tell you what your problem is, is your own doctors and mental health treatment team. give them a call and set up an appointment and tell them what you told us and they can tell you what your problem is called in you and how to fix it.