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Originally Posted by ladylazarus
Depending on how bad it is that day if I go out my hands shake sometimes even my legs when sitting. It's so embarrassing and annoying. Before my vacation I went to get a manicure and pedicure. I was shaking so bad the woman kept asking me if I was okay. It was so humiliating. I'm able to go out when my boyfriend is with me. I long for the day when I don't need someone to be with me just to go somewhere.
Here's to my treatment someday setting me free of this. I try to keep the faith that it will  |
My hands shake a fair bit at times (depending on meds and stress), my workmates know why and it is an ongoing joke, and they are helpful when I can't do stuff because of it. But, like you I get embarassed at shops etc. I hate the look on the 16yr old cashiers when my hands are shaking when I try to pay them... I feel so judged though they are probably not thinking anything bad at all...
I agree with Melissa, you need to take responsibility for your recovery and your happiness.
Life is not meant to be experienced at the intensity of your holidays all the time, there is an ebb and flow to it, the less vibrant times highlight the amazing times, with BP we experience a greater variation between the two, but even in "normality" there are quiet times and exciting times, enjoy this time for what it can give you, time to reflect, time to indulge in hobbies, time to strengthen and build up your reserves....
All the best for the challenges ahead and praying for your recovery.