BNLS, hon, hang in there. Pup had some really good advice, but antoher thing t odo is remember that thoughts are not REAL. They come and go unless you give them more substance, hon. Just let them go their way and they will. I know they are scary, I get them too, but try not to attach any emotion to them, and they will probably move on.
Poor hon. I HATE that frantic feeling. You're mixed and can't stay in one place long enough to get anything really done. Try to think about where you are NOW and don't try to cram everything into the times you have energy, you'll just backlash.
Huggs, dear.