Gus, one of my problems is that I have "suffered" a lot over the last few years and come to find out that I am supposed to suffer. I have issue with the fact of that. I dont see how others can care so much if others suffer but me I just supposed to feel it..... whatever.... I know im not worth feeling better but with that being the case if its suffering or death I choose death...

Queen, i believe that is an accurate reason however I wish people would focus on there wors, telling a suicidal person to hang is not always a good thing, I have tried that method a couple of times always get scared at the last minute.

Sorry to hear you are feeling beat up, and so early in the day too....