I can never be well I know it I just know it

there is nothing in my life to help me nothing and no one to support me

i miss my youth and I don't see anything good for me in my life at 36 because i will always be focused on my age and dying and the past gone

there's no way out of this prison

there just isn't

I tried for two years and have only gotten worse and will continue to

It is too hard to even brush my teeth, shower etc

there's no hope

i have no one and am all alone

I just see disaster and danger in every single second and that will just get worse