Today, well, so far... still waking up and in my morning brain-fog-- but am getting annoyed with waking up to a panic attack a lot lately. Most days the panic attacks have been revisiting through the day. Ugh. Have not taken any of my alprazolam though, because with such a very limited amount left, I'm afraid to deplete entirely(!) Will be going to a PHMNP next week though, so will have a better idea of what's going to be in the tool box. So to speak. Boy I hate panic attacks. I've gone nice long spans without them at times. Didn't miss 'em and would like to tell them to go visit the mountains or something instead of visiting me!

Denise, I totally get what you're saying about the troublesome expression. I understand that people mean well, and that it's a common expression, but it's one that I'm really uncomfortable with too, so you can rest assured you'll never ever hear me use it. On the suffering, I do care, and you are worth feeling better. Much advice falls into the "useful for some and not for others" catagory. Those that are not useful to me I've had to learn to let fall away as best I can (not easy, for sure, but still I try)... a practice that I've had to put into play a fair bit at support group (where there is actually a rule about it, so it's usually not direct, but still...). That, and remind myself that people do mean well, they just don't hear it through our ears. (There was a biggie at group recently, that everyone else seemed to appreciate that I just found triggering, so I was busy zoning out. Sometimes I'm sure I look like a space cadet, but that's alright! )

for all!!! (Hey, mommasuesue, can I borrow some of your motivation? )