As some of you know I have been fired from 58 jobs, most of which I did nothing wrong...the higher ups would sense there was something different about me and fired me there on the spot, telling me I was 'strange..'

I believe I have toned down my strangeness for the most part, have not been fired in 6 years.

Have been working successfully as a substitute teacher, as an afterschool teacher, and as a waitress.

The afterschool position ended when school ended June 24th, I accepted a volunteer position at a summer Bible camp that had its very first summer existence this summer.

They provided envelopes and I sent out letters asking for sponsorship for my time there, that it was like a missions trip, I raised $500 to be paid to me once I completed my 2 weeks there, checks made out to the camp, only to be turned into me once I completed my time there. I need this money desperately.

3 days into camp, this staff member that was put in charge ( when the director had to leave as his first daughter was being born)

She cornered me, along with another staff member, and declared that the nurse reported I had not been taking my meds. I had, all along. Meds were to be turned into the nurse for safety, and declared. So they knew what I was on and why.

I said I had been taking them, asked the nurse why she would say such a thing..the nurse said the two girls approached _her and demanded to know whether I had been taking my meds, not the other way around. The nurse said she could not tell, as they were kept in a bottle. She never said I was not taking them.

I resigned. They threw my things on the side of the road, and when I found out my ride's car (my car) had died, said they would call the police if I remained on the property.

I eventually got a ride after spending the night out in the wilderness. My father said no, he wouls not be my ride. That I should not have lent my car to my boyfriend etc etc That it was all my fault. He never sees me try and try to succeed but get hit with discrimination every time. He takes the discrimination's side, each and every time. Never there for me.

I think and believe I am a good person, many tell me so.

Just not the people that matter in my heart deeply.

I am getting along better with my mother the whole time, we are even thinking of moving closer to each other, so yes, a positive.

Does anyone else feel dicriminated against all the freaking time? I am always paranoid someone is figuring out I am a bit different and attacking me for it, happens quite a bit.

I have tried and tried to tone down my differentness, but it just does not go away.

I did not even do anything wrong at this camp.

Gonna cry now.....