I hate being alone and having no life and being too frozen in fear to do anything

I have sooo many issues and problems

my head is going to explode

I have no support, I am all alone

I do not have a single person to talk to or hang out with

I hate being with myself 24 hours a day with no life

it is terrifying and torturous

no one no one can live this way

I wish I could find some hope even a bit of it somehow

no one should ever be all alone and divorced with kids

it's horrible

my whole identity and the life I built is gone and everyone that was in it has disappeared

I don't feel close to anyone even my kids

I am so terrified of dying soon and leaving them and no one understands

i'm going to die all alone in tremendous fear

my mind is stuck

I should go out and do something but why should I just hang out with myself I can't handle it

All I do is remember my past and the life I had before this monster took over and how I can never have it again

my ex is pure evil and he is not suffering at all for all his sins but I am for being his punching bag and slave