Update:
so i have no therapist not psychiatrist... the intake i went to all they wanted to do was send me to group thearpy which i talked to another therapist who is also a psychology professor at my college he said that wouldn't be a good idea because ill just take everyone elses ideas and use them to help me play the sick role... he said i should do private therapy first and then go into group therapy... the hospital wasn't willing to offer it...

i have so much going on right now im just going to take a break.. i moved bak home with my parents who have no clue whats going on...and im in the middle of no where... next month when i move bak to the origial area i used to live in ill go look for help again....
Lets just hope i can make it through this month...