Heh. Maybe I keep hoping it'll just get better, even while it's getting worse. I've noticed that when something comes along that's difficult to deal with, I try ignore it. Essays for school, my dad's drinking, my online history class... Stuff like that. :/

I dunno. I'd have to tell my mom about it. And we can't afford to go see anyone. I mean, she'd do it. But I don't want to make my mom more stressed out because of the expense. And I don't have any idea how I'd tell her anyway. "Goodnight mom. Oh, by the way, I think I have some sort of anxiety disorder. Can we call the doctor tomorrow? Okay, so I'll see you tomorrow! ^^"

Maybe if it gets much worse. I dunno. I kinda wanna wait it out, see if it'll go away on its own. I remember that I was incredibly depressed for a couple weeks. I didn't really eat, and had no interest in anything that didn't involve sleep, and felt sad (if I felt anything at all). But that stopped, for the most part, by itself. I keep thinking "maybe this will all just go away"...

Plus, what if they wanna do a blood test? Or give me a shot? My mom said she wants me to start those damned HPV shots next time I go to the doctor. I don't think I could handle a shot. I'd run screaming. I know I would.