Thank you all kindly for your encouragement. But I am, in fact, a psychopath. I do realize that I am not the stereotypical thriller movie psycho. But very few, if any, psychopaths do match that stereotype. We are, contrary to popular belief, quite charming individuals. We're overtly polite, articulate, and sensible, most of the time. "Superficial charm" is even one of the criteria. Most psychopaths stay on the brighter side of the judicial system. Nearly all of us are loved, most of whom are married or in long term relationships, which is what makes us so dangerous, arguably. And we can desire change, or desire something ... more. Well, we always want more. Who doesn't?

This label hangs onto me more than I to it. I don't mind the badge. I actually like being different, just for the sake of being unique. And it does give me a confidence to know that I'm deemed a "predator" of sorts. But I don't like the stigma attached to the label itself, which really affects a lot of my daily life, especially if I ever find myself in legal bind, if my credibility is at stake, or if I'm in need of a job. And that's going to stick with me for the rest of my life, unless I can change my name and move to another country or argue the legitimacy of the diagnosis with a psychologist... which will never happen because, once you've been labeled as manipulative and a liar, no mental health professional or judge or detective will believe anything you say at all ... ever...

The protection theory is a good one, and I laud you for your argument of said theory. But it was also debated by various therapists and other such professionals of mine to no avail. I did have a rough childhood, and my lack of certain emotions protected me from the psychological torment I should have been subject to. That lack of emotion, conscience, and empathy, however, was not a result of my past. I also have a number of other personality "quirks" that match the criteria for the accepted definition of psychopathy which could not be explained by other mental illnesses.

As for the challenge... That's where are mindsets markedly differ... Most of the time ... when I'm bored, and lost in the mundane life ... I feel caged and anxious, or empty. When I see a challenge, it's like I come alive, which is why I enjoy it so. I'm at home with the game. It's natural to me.