Aww I'm so sorry your trip into public went so badly! I can definitely relate to ignoring problems...I still try to play down all my issues, as if it will make them go away.

I'm going to be blunt. Now I'm not trying to tell you what's best for you, just give you something to consider. I had that attitude for a long time. It ended in screaming fights with my mother, psychotic episodes and eventually an anxiety attack so severe I made a trip to the ER. Trust me, that is not the way you want your family to find out about this. I'm sure your mother would be more stressed to find out she couldn't help you than she would be about tightening the budget.

If you ever do choose to let this come out and find some therapy and medication, we'll be here with you every step of the way. We can help you brainstorm how to bring it up with your mom. Just think about it and let us know what your thoughts are