Hey, Feary,
You're not quite alone, not quite. Yes, it's true, you don't have someone to eat with or watch movies with, but as the last poster noted, you have all of us here on PC listening to you, feeling for you, wanting to communicate with you, and knowing how you feel.
Do you know
how to find someone? You found your ex once upon a time but maybe he found you. Do you go to church and participate in church activities? Is there some other social center you can work with? Volunteering is a great way to find very nice people indeed. I realize that with two kids your time is limited, but you have to do
something to get out of your unhappy position.
Sometimes I eat with people, sometimes I eat alone. Sometimes I go to the movies with people, sometimes I go myself. It's all part of life; it's all normal. Just because you're by yourself now and then doesn't mean you're a bad person or someone no one will love. But you do have to put yourself in situations where other singles hang out. The local theater group is another good place. Again, I know you have kids, and I know that limits your time away from home, but you have to start somewhere.
I wish you all the best, no kidding, and will be happy to respond to any post or PM you want to send to PC.
You take care now, things will get better if you let them.
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We must love one another or die.
W.H. Auden
We must love one another AND die.
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