I am finding that counselling is now helpingme identify my triggers, work out my emotions and learn to handle them appropriately.

I do feel strongly that this battle is just about impossible to win without meds - please try get some help (Again, I'm not from USA, but others here are very clued up on state medical assistance)
Post here about your individual thoughts and feelings and we will definitely do our best to support you through the ups and downs. We're all used to it, as even with meds, it's just about unavoidable that the swings will come back at some stage or another...!