I feel like my world is torn apart. The rug hasn't been pulled out from under me, the entire ground has been pulled out.
I've been so depressed, but I was able to hang on without going into the pit (as I call it). But I'm in the bottom of it now, and I don't see any way out.
My partner and I are no longer together as of last night. We are still friends, but the love of my life is gone. I've never hurt like this, at least not since I was 16 and my grandfather died. That's the last time I can remember feeling this empty. And this surpasses even that. I can't eat, I can't sleep, and I'm at work trying so hard not to cry, but it's just not working.
She is still in love with her ex. She says it's not fair to me to be in a relationship with me when she still has feelings for someone else. That's what she says anyway. She has been trying to get me to break up with her for a month or so now. I know she wants to go back to her. She tells me that that's not what this is about, that she just needs to be on her own, and figure out her feelings, but I know the truth. I guess I've known it for awhile.
I don't know how to do this. I've been in relationships that have broken up after years, but I've never felt this dead inside (that's not a suicide plea, I would never contemplate that)
I need help, I need someone to tell me how to put my heart back together, because I don't know how.