Thank you, everyone, for your concern. I don't know what to make of things right now, one minute I'm up, the next I'm down, and the rapid see-sawing of my emotions can be overwhelming sometimes. I know I'm a rapid cycler, I've known ever since I was diagnosed as bipolar II, but you never get used to the rapidity of the shifts of emotion. Sometimes I swear it feels like I'm losing my mind. I don't like talking to shrinks, though. They all talk down to you, patronize you. They assume you're dumb, that you know nothing about the illness, and they always fill up your head with all the standard cliches about feeling the way you do, about how you need to not let the illness think for you, etc., etc. I hate that. You can't get away from it, though. Right now, my thinking is clear, my emotions aren't shifting, and I feel embarrassed about my original post, but this is normal. I'll get over the embarrassment. Again, thank you to everyone for the concern shown. I hope the crisis is over. I think it is, but you never can tell.