It was good you reached out in the moment, no matter what you may be regretting now, never regret. It is SO important, no matter the mood or shift to know your providers are there for you and we are too. I am a rapid cycler myself and truly understand, getting frustrated with the speedy shifts too.

You mentioned the way some of your providers speak to you. I would consider talking to them about how they speak to you or consider getting someone new. They don't all speak this way but I too have had ones that have and know where you are coming from. It is worth finding someone you can be open with and respected. You deserve it. Hang in there!!