stay away from married couples and don't build your nest on top of somebody's else nest....that's just unacceptable....

Try to get help....go to therapy, talk to a priest, a doctor, a friend whoever can help you to find a right way to get out of this....

what you are signing for is a recipe for disaster, so why do you do that then?

honesty, half through your post I felt no more need to read more......that is sad what you have in your mind.....just be aware of it and don't do it....