I'm glad you're feeling a bit better. Please don't be embarrassed of your post, many of us and myself included have been in your place as well.

I agree with Fresia. I have experienced that from mental health providers, but I have also found caring individuals. They are like any other profession, some are great, some are average and some suck s***! It's just a matter of trying until you find someone that is a good fit for you.