He is 14/15 years older then I am. And we have both been married to other people once. I've just had more relationships then he has.

When I got a response to my e-mail it was "I need time to think about what you said." Now I'm stressing about if he's going to call me tonight or not.

I almost wish he would say that it's something he can't change instead of telling me he'll try and then he fails.

I've baked him a cake, made him brownies, I'm all the time leaving messages in his in box or on his facebook page saying "I love you" "I'm thinking about you" "I can't wait to see you...." Would he hurt him to do that every once in a while? I buy him little things that I know he would like. I bought him this really cool eagles shirt off the clearance rack at Wal-Mart. He hasn't gotten me anything since Valentine's day. But then I got to thinking, maybe he's holding back for something super nice for my birthday? But why kid myself?

I told my dad I will never date again if this guy turns out to be a flop. My dad hasn't responded yet, or asked what's happened. But I'm sure he will when he comes by tomorrow.

Maybe I just read too many books and watch too many movies and think there is suppose to be more to a loving relationship then there really is. Maybe this is as good as it gets.