I'm just overwhelmed. I keep waiting for things to calm down inside me, but as the days go by I don't feel any better. Every time I close my eyes, the memories and flashbacks and images and feelings are there. Every time I try to sleep I wake up crying and yelling and fighting. I can't get any peace and it's wearing me out. I don't even know what to do. Nothing, I guess. I just keep waiting, because I've learned that emotions are like waves and they come and go, but this just keeps coming and coming and coming.

I want to call my T but I don't know what she could say, what anyone could possibly say, that would help. I feel like if I call her I'm just spreading my sorrow around, like a virus.