I put it in my blog about what happened tonite. ate too much and purged. Well now that i did it i am thinking about what a classmate said in psychology. She use to be bulimic and had surgery so she could not gag. She tells me that 99% of bulimics die early. And is this the way i want to live. Truthfully i rather die than to gain anymore weight. Im 235 im still a fat cow. I hate my body, i hate the way i was when i was little. Eating so much junk food. I curse burger king and taco bell for making me fat. I hate my fat. I want to take a knife and just chop off my stomach and my thys and the flabs under my arm, oh not to forget MY FAT BUBBLE BUTT. Im sick of being a fat cow. I just want to starve and starve every fat cell in my body. Im pist that i cant loose my fat. Im pist that when i try to eat healthy i end up eating too much and PURGING. Im sick as hell of this. I just want to be thin. IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK. 150lbs thats what i want to weigh. I must just accept that im a fat cow, i will allways be a fat cow, and will DIE a fat cow..


signed

the fat cow