thanks my friend.....I don't know....I just feel a bit down today....I know it is because of my PMS too and I have stress at work and other stuff....but I haven't heard back from him and I don't know even if I care really.....I just hate the beginning of the relationship that I don't know the guy well....from the first date till yesterday, everyday I got an email from him and not today....I know he might be busy....and I'm not really expecting anything, but I'm wondering if I should still shop around, or If I should dive into the ocean....

I know what you mean by not giving 100% and then scrolling it up, but honesty, I'm so afraid of it too.....how should I know him? how should I know if he's just with me? he seems so eager and happy when he's with me and he can't hold his hands off, but then he's all cold in between.....if he emails, he says nice things....

I think it's better I go to bed and not think about anything....I hate myself even I told my girlfriend today....I hate that I shouldn't have told her....she's my good friend and she doesn't even ask me, but still I should have kept it to myself.....It's been just three dates, doesn't mean anything.....

Yes, if I'm not brave, then I would not get what I want.....so, I got to be brave and stay strong....

thanks again
Marjan