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Originally Posted by zooropa
I guess I'm having some kind of crisis of faith (in therapy) over here. It has just occurred to me how horrible I feel. Really, really horrible. And this is supposed to be HELPING me? I keep saying I trust my T and I trust the process, but I feel like I've just been hit over the head with the clue stick. THERAPY IS NOT HELPING.
Telling my story is not helping. I feel exponentially worse now than I did this time last week, and the reason is therapy. The reason is going in there week after week and going over trauma and reliving it. Reliving it all week, alone, in the dark and every time I let down my guard. Forcing myself to open up to my T only to have to go through the pain of being alone with the feelings dredged up in all those hours between sessions.
Sure, T is with me, when I'm there in her office. But as soon as I walk out the door I'm alone with this stuff and I have to say, I think I'm better off alone with it buried than alone with it unearthed and gnawing on my heart.
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Hi zoo, I was at the exact same place not so long ago. I'm not sure I can be of much help here, so I just wanted to say that it is possible to get through this and then feel better. Some time ago, I was feeling like you are now. I haven't worked through everything yet (in fact, I had to stop working on traumatic issues it was so horrible) but you will be pleased to hear that it does get much better with time. It won't always be like this. Would some time off help you, what do you think, like going on vacation? It worked wonders for me. Just getting a break from these thoughts can be a relief in itself. Anyway, I just wanted to give you some hope. Thinking of you, Ocean.