I hope you do not hate me for my reply but I do not think God made you do drugs. He may have helped you with those 10 months you were free of it all. It is called free will....I am btw a NON recovering Rx drug abuser and I know God doesn't make me use it ..I do. I am sorry you're hurting over falling off such a long time without..God just doesn't move in the ways some think...If he did we would not have so many who starve in other countries, if someone asked not to be ill they wouldnt be and so on....
I have only seen AA and NA stuff on TV so I may be wrong but isnt part of it all being responsible for your own choices hard as it is? Again I am sorry but I hate to see you place the blame anywhere else cause then you never will find true sobriety it seems. This is just by opinion and all and I know I would be so mad and sad if I messed up after even a day not using so I know you are in pain and am sorry.