For not being depressed. The last one was a doozey, thought I would have to go back into PHP, but it didn't last very long. Actually while coming out of it this time, I was able to shut down the negative thinking. You know like fight back on my own a bit, I think that that first time ever.

I also rode my bike the other day. It was a nice day I thought, might as well do this. The bike itself is a beautiful road bike a classic by Lemond, about 4yrs old. They run generally about 1200-1500 hundred dollars, but I got mine for 375, used, in great shape only 1 scratch on it. The previous owner worked at a bike shop, she kept it clean and well tuned, I'm in love. But because I was in a depressed episode, for about 3 weeks, I didn't ride it until the other day for the first time and I mean the first time in about 15 years.

It was very hot and humid, and straight up hill right away, and I became very tired and sweaty within a matter of minutes. I pushed and pushed, but, with ego bruised a little and the perfectionist in me deflated, I decided, "you know, you don't have to die today, at least you got out of the apartment, walking though a nice neighborhood with nice gardening work, and you tried; and isn't cool that you rode your bike". So I stopped. Heart beating hard, sucking in air, still looking cool in my brand new helmet with a flashing light on my bag, and walked the rest of the way to see my shrink. Oh, I forgot to say I was on my way to see him, we had a good laugh over the whole sweaty mess that I was.

I am so happy I'm not depressed today.