oh, you guys. It was so great to come here and read your responses this morning. Thank you, each and every one one of you.

I had a rough night last night (obviously). My dreams were as messed up and horrible as ever. I called my T this morning before I even got out of bed, and talked to her. She keeps telling me it's not going to be this bad forever. I have to believe her. I could walk away from her, quit therapy, but then I would be completely alone with this. I have gone too far now to go back. I just have to keep going forward, one step, one moment at a time.

tree, like you I was so numb when I came to therapy. I guess that's why it feels so horrible now, because I'm really FEELING for the first time. Thank you for continually reminding me that it won't be this bad forever.

tay, I'm using my DBT skills like crazy. As much distress and turmoil as I have been in these past few weeks, it would have been so much worse without the skills that I have learned. My T is also very good about always bringing me back to DBT. So I can call her in a complete meltdown, and 5 minutes later she has me focusing on what skills are going to be most effective in the moment. I am lucky to have her.

SAWE, thank you for reminding me that the only way out is through. I tell that to myself, a lot, but I think I had forgotten recently. I really have passed the point of no return. I just have to keep going. It sounds so simple, but is so hard.