Bridgie, I totally relate to what you're saying, and I agree with everyone else, it is just the mood talking, not you, and you are not Intolerable or worthless. I know how it feels, to have those around you grow tired of hearing the same things, over and over again, not feeling that you can really un-burden yourself to anyone close to you. You have to keep in mind, difficult as it is, even for me to do, that people without bipolar disorder or major depression, simply don't understand what you are going through. They can't grasp what it's like, and they operate under a lot of misconceptions about psychiatric illnesses. I came to terms with the fact that people without these problems are simply incapable of understanding what it's like to suffer from depression or bipolar disorder. It's painful, and very frustrating, but I don't blame them. In a strange sort of way, they are suffering from, what I like to think of anyway, a disorder as well. When I think of others like this, suffering from what I like to think of as the disorder of not understanding, it helps me to put things in perspective. These other people who don't understand what you, and everyone else with a psychiatric illness, are going through, are laboring under mountains of misunderstanding, myth, and false assumptions. They can't fight their way out from under this mountain, and most never try to, because they don't see things as I do, or as others with an illness do. They can't recognize the biases and misunderstandings they operate under. It sucks, I know, but you have to remember that there are people who do understand, who are ready and willing to offer you compassion and support. You are not alone, although it seems at times that you are. There are others who will reach out to you with love.