I just found out I am going to be getting disability, I've been waiting almost a year for this. Now I find out I won't get medicare with it. I really needed it to cover my meds plus I may want try ECT. Right now I get help from the clinic I go to, they give me samples of my meds but sometimes they are out and I have to go without until they come in again. Walmart doesn't have a great selection of antidepressants. I'm upset now because I thought that now I won't have to worry about switching meds if I need to. Also, is anyone embarrassed to be on disability for mental illness. I have major depression and I don't think people think thats a legitimate illness. I don't want to tell anyone I know that I'm on disability because I know they will be disgusted with me. People really don't want to hear about my depression anyway. I have shared with some friends and family but they just say they are depressed too and still have to manage their life and do what they have to do. That makes me feel like crap. I now stay to myself and don't really talk to anyone. Just wanted to know how how others deal with being on disability.