MadyJohannah sorry you are just feeling there. I can sympathize with the feeling. Life is just existing at times. I hope things pick up for you soon.

Lauru I already posted on the thread you started. Again I hope your meds will bring you a good change. I know things have been rough for you quite some time now. If you have to go inpatient I hope your partner will be understanding and want the best for you. I'm glad you are seeking out help. I hope you feel better soon.

This morning I felt anxious because I had promised to go over my parents house and I really didn't want to when it came down to it. I have to fight with myself to go anywhere. I did get out and go like I promised and it was kinda refreshing. My sisters were there too and it was good to all sit down and visit. Overall I feel pretty good about today. My youngest sister is coming over to stay the night tonight. i wish I could say I was looking forward to it, but it means I have to act more enthused then I feel. I just don't have the heart to tell her I don't feel like company. I'll get through it and it probably won't be as bad as I think it will be. I'll have to try and stay up later then I want to, but she is my sis and I love her. Anyway I've rambled on long enough. Hoping everyone else is finding some sort of piece in there day.