You know, zoo, I remember quite a while ago when I felt pressured to continue on a faster path through difficult stuff....I felt as though I would disappoint T otherwise.

But I got to a point where I couldn't. I simply didn't have the energy, having reached my limit with overwhelming day to day stuff. I was already barely functioning and knew that I couldn't handle more.

T respects that. He does not have any set expectation or agenda...although I know he wants me to go there.

He mentioned to me yesterday that there are some areas that I have been putting a lot of effort into - and other areas that I won't touch - such as trauma...His example was sharing my "secrets" in group T. I'm not ready yet...but I may be getting close, as I am feeling safer in group these days.

But in any case, it'll take as long as it takes....because only I know what I can handle.

Be kind to yourself...