Two questions that come to mind are: Are you in therapy? and... Are you taking any medications? Both of those things can really help OCD, although I'd personally say that the therapy is the most important part. However, my medication has helped to get rid of a lot of the anxiety associated with my OCD, so in that sense it helps as well.

Sending you many hugs. OCD is a tough illness to deal with, but keep hanging in there.