I so wish I could just get out of my head, but I seem to be stuck in there.

I've been having some control issues lately, triggered by -get this- vulnerability and abandonment. I have to laugh at the irony I guess.

In any case, he indicated several times that when he got back he simply did not want to hear about how I've been handing it. Really, I should have never brought it up in the first place.

I'm quite angry with him. Quite hurt too. I've been seeing him several years. Did not expect this his reaction, which was followed by "okay then, see ya bye" He's gone for two weeks.

As I indicated previously, I used to be tougher about these things. I feel like I'm just a mess.