Finally I am seeing T next week. I talked to her on the phone a couple of times and she was very warm and receptive. She said of course it was ok for me to call her. She knows I am feeling sui and she is going to try and see me two times next week, because I am so fragile right now. I hope she has a second opening so I can see her. I missed her so much. I am so happy she is back. I thought this would never come. I am finally starting to think that maybe if I can't control the sui I will go to the hospital. I wasn't thinking that way before. Thanks to everyone who has been helping me this last past month without my T. It is greatly appreciated!